CAKES!!!!!

2009-12-04T12:45:00.002+08:00

sian lar...
ytd go plaza singapura...
kena suan all the way yesterday...
-.- lol but quite funny...
made a new friend who is quite cute.
hahhas oops~
anw we went to play l4d2 after that...
shane so bad... left our friends to die there...
then aloy grenade me...
>.<
hahas...
gonna organize more outings soon ba...

toodles~

2009-10-12T00:38:00.001+08:00

happy birthday san jie!!!
1 year shorter till... tok tok tok...
LOL!! JKJK!!!!
hahas
had a really good time at the party!
hopes to hang out soon yeah?
hahas
tyvm for everything!

2009-08-16T14:12:00.002+08:00

ok... i am thinking of changing my blog to a help blog
a place where people can come as an anonymous person and ask for help
why?
because many people have problems and got nowhere to shout it out.
bottled up too long will cause them to do stupid things in the end.
i want to help people in need. especially in times hardship.

Oh and don't worry
i WILL practise professionalism and will protect your identity at ALL cost.
however i'll reply through my postings unless you request it not to be posted.

Updates will be posted on a week by week basis and replies will be sent ASAP.

Yours Sincerely
Chaos

something's wrong with me

2009-08-09T05:29:00.002+08:00

shit... there's something wrong with me...
been falling sick super easily
and it last for a long time(the illness)
i woke up super early just to vomit out my food(just now only)
been unable to fall asleep and my body aches alot...
maybe i'm dying? hahahs just kidding!!!
i pray that i'll get well soon...

WOW... so long since i blogged

2009-08-03T18:43:00.002+08:00

so long yet so fast...
feels like 6 months gone in a week
hahas

ah crap... i can't do poetry...
so many things happened but all never blog down...
currently in IA(industrial attachment)
nothing big though
was chosen for JAMCO but i volunteered for in-house IA...
lol

wa... so long le... still single... hahas....
maybe it is time to look for a girlfriend?

ok....very sian nowadays...
nothing to do so i go jogging nearly every evening...
hahas... doing parkour again too~

sien... i getting injurys so easily nowadays...
dunno why dunno how...

message:
i still think of u...
the times when i touched you with my lips...
the moments when i tasted you...
all the hours we spent together...
all the seconds i felt you with my hands...
the taste you left on my toungue...
all this while i was thinking of u...
till the extend that none can replace you...
how i wish to hold you once more...
to put u into my mouth...
dipped with soya sauce...
how i wish to eat you...
but i need to go and buy you from the store...
so troublesome...
i wanna eat... SHUSHI!!!

lol...
ok that was lame...

The Damned, The Fallen, The Forgotten, The Hated, The Choob

2009-06-07T04:44:00.005+08:00

The Context Of
The Damned, The Fallen, The Forgotten, The Hated, The Choob

The Damned
The Damned is someone who is always looked down upon by his/her peers and hardly talks due to the fact that he/she is not allowed to shine. another translation is that no matter how good he/she tries, people around him/her will never be satisfied whit the work.

The Fallen
someone fallen from a group/fraction and has almost lost contact with that group/fraction due to them/him/her not contacting the other side. this is probablly due to something the fallen has done but may not always be the case.

The Forgotten
Almost similar to The Fallen but in this case, The Forgotten has not done anything wrong or offensive to the other party to be lost and forgotten. Another Translation is that is that the other party refused to contact/has cut of contact with The Forgotten due to an unknown reason.

The Hated
A person hated by literally everyone that it has forced him/her to near isolation. Usually has little/no Friends at all dus to certain subjective reasons/conditions. not much translation needed.

The Choob
A Noob Basically. Just that he/she is chewy/Chewable and a noob. so the SUBJECT becomes a choob. Loved by literally everyone due to the SUBJECT being Lame/Dumb/Noob/Funny/WADD EVER! the main point is that The Choob is someone that does nothing but get owned but is a good team player, usually has alot of leadership and does not complains.

i'm all the above.=X

Legalize Airsoft Guns in Singapore

2009-05-26T22:46:00.008+08:00

sign this petition with me...!
[Legalize Airsoft Guns in Singapore]

what airsoft? good question.... watch this video...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcqT2yPlQ-Q
its sort of like a cheaper and more realistic version of lazer quest. more fun too...
btw this ppl are national airsoft team, they go for competitions and stuff.
the game you saw them play is called mil-sim(military-stimulation).

am i.... am i dead?

2009-05-04T19:57:00.002+08:00

what is wrong man...
was told, " ask when in doubt."
but when i ask, i get scolded...
man...
somemore, was being scolded for being childish...
WHEN!!!, they are there doing the same thing that i do...
and when i am serious, you joke and play and ack like a fag...
a little... CONTRADICTING RIGHT?!?!?!
practise what you preach.
if you want to laugh at a man for loosing an arm, loose one first.
if you want to scold me, check yourself first.
and er, if you wanna tell me off for this erm... "POST"
go ahead! i ain stopping you, i ain even gonna fight back!
funny isn't it?
people say that when the pot boils and turns black,
the kettle laughs just because he turned black first.
and i also realise... many fakes...
blogs and do much to reveal them out.
so please... for you fakes out there, be careful.
for jackasses, well... just continue being a jackass.

toodles~

2009-04-20T21:23:00.002+08:00

NARWHALS!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykwqXuMPsoc

Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up.
It is wise to keep in mind that neither success nor failure is ever final.
Management is doing things right; leadership is doing the right things.

2009-03-25T01:25:00.003+08:00

Some of you probably know about this scandal from Singapore where this specific guy with the name of gary ng posted 33 videos doing some "export & import" business with 22 different individuals. I just found this out through ping.sg.

It's on a few blogs as well as a few online news headlines as well giving him the title of "Singapore's Edison Chen"

I had a good sarcastic laugh myself reading the news and the blog posts especially finding out how he looked like. (if the picture of him posted is true)

"
he claimed to have done a beer promo auntie; a property agent; a banker; a mother and her daughter; his neighbour; his office colleague; a Chinese maid; a NUS student; a poly girl; his own cousin; his friend; his friend’s niece; a waitress; a student nurse; a Chivas promoter; a cosmetic girl; an ah lian, etc
"

The blogger who posted earliest about this whole scandal had his share of thoughts posted on his blog, condemning such acts of immorality.

A few clicks and search through google leads me to the famous forum where he posted the video links as well as his stories.
*don't bother finding the videos la!

Here is part of the story where he actually did business with his cousin. Brainless Maniac.

Many guys might start worshiping this so called "Edison Chen of Singapore" as much as they worshiped the REAL Edison Chen, i do think that these people have real serious mental problem. Just like what my friend said, maybe he should go find Ms Angelia.
*Ms Angelia is my class advisor.

Seriously, what's so nice and proud about having all these with so many people?? To show off to your friends?? To have a certain level of satisfaction recording down how many successful rounds??

Whatever it is, I'm pretty sure that to all these people, there will be a certain level of damage made mentally by themselves and all this are just an act of further hurting themselves stepping deeper and if they continue doing this, they will find themselves being in a black hole so hard to get out and worst come to worst committing suicide will be one of their option.

Then that would be tragic.

to finish the story about his cousin, he mentioned this in one of the forum posts.

"
when i had a gf, she was somehow furious with me like dislike sharing me with another girl.. Becos after that incident, not only we became closer, we even became something like a fxxk buddy...Sometime few time a months we will meet up for movie or other & twice or thrice we will have xxx..

I can said the relationship is till now & we even go a step further to create an account in AFriendFinder to find couple for xxx together to do something more exciting..So who said cousin can't be xxx buddy or even RAW.. CHeers guy..
"

Yes he was talking about his cousin....

"
对于别人给他冠上“狮城陈冠希”的称号，他还颇“谦虚”地说，“其实，他们不必把我当成甚么明星，我只是为新加坡男子贡献一些免费录像。”他还强调，短片中大部份女主角对于被拍是知情的。至于为何在短片上留下自己的电邮，他声称，很多人在网上留言，要求他提供电邮以方便联络，他只是循众要求。

Translation:
Responding to people who gave him the title "Singapore's Edison Chen", he humbly replied and say that "You all don't have to treat me as any super star, i'm just providing some free videos to the guys in Singapore", he added on that most of the females are aware of the filming process. On why did he leave his own email on the videos, he said that there're many people leaving messages online requesting ways to contact with him, he was just fulfilling the requests.

"

Well, what can i say more?

Sources:
entertainmentoftheday
www.asiaone.com
alvinology
www.it.com.cn

2009-03-18T19:32:00.000+08:00

sian sia...
wat is today sia...?
dropping day?
i drop so many thigs today lor...
sian sia...
hahas~
but ok la....
my phone spoil!!! AGAIN!!!!
sian sia...
need come out more money to repair...
maybe jus sell it away and get new phone...

2009-03-15T17:51:00.000+08:00

i don't know anything bout my self....
seriously man....
i dunno....

2009-03-08T23:16:00.001+08:00

I know i know...
this is remote control flying...
but seriously this is cool man...
go take a look at this web...
http://www.videosift.com/video/RC-Airplane-Acrobatics-Contest

2009-03-07T15:04:00.002+08:00

brothers?
yeah right...
even after 2 years, you all never called or msg...
i read your blog, so many outings and i wasn't there...
sure... you can sae its cus of different timing or what-so-ever...
but funny...
since someone else is in ite too, but he can be there?!?!?!
wierd huh....
and then finally after a long long time...,
a msg...
but!
msg me to suan me...
say that i MIA[missing in action] from you all....
WiErD!
cus...
since it is u all who never replyed my smses,
always go out without me
and "unknowingly" ask me to go away,
and now i go away?
u say i mia...
jus stunning...
and yet it never cease to amaze me...
i am very sure that u all dun even know bout my current situation,
what hapened to me or what IS going to hapen to me...
and i'm sure you also dun know as much about me as another stranger...
i'm jus... amazed...
seriously amazed...

0.o

2009-03-05T12:15:00.002+08:00

jus came back from the hospital yesterday...
before that was from camp....
now i look like a malay person...
so brown...
the operation was ok...
now in pain....
hiax...
can't go school for 2 weeks...
wanna talk oso painful...
now stuck at home...
hard to walk... hard to talk...
worse of all....
hiax...
forget it...
in pain in pain...

sian la....

2009-02-22T22:02:00.001+08:00

crap nonsense bullshit...
always giving counselling and advice...
bout time its me getting it instead...
problems and complications...
trouble and questions...
all are rising up...
sometimes....
if jus i could do something..
sad...
=[

No reply...

2009-02-21T20:26:00.003+08:00

what am i that need this kind of treatment?
what did i do to deserved this?
Why? WHy? WHY????
the pain i felt, the anguish i feel...
something you may not understand but I wish you could....
i jus want a reply from you...
please do not ingnore me....
i message you... but always no reply...
i'm always happy when you did...
but i'm shattered when you don't....
i know you are busy and famous now...
but even if you reply late...
i won't mind...
jus as long...
as you reply...
=[

outing with yq

2009-02-16T17:02:00.003+08:00

hihi~
came back late last night.
went out with yq monster...
=X
we went to eat dinner...
but cus we didn't see each other for a long time,
nothing much to say...
but in the end we talk alot....

my life... is dashed...
my hopes... is smashed...
my dreams... has crashed...
my style... is wacked...
my only one... is you...

ladder theory

2009-02-11T22:00:00.002+08:00

http://www.laddertheory.com/
i seriously agree with this guy.
would you chase a girl who is retarded, butt-ugly, have jus one eye and halfe a brain?
no right

wn and me made this theory too....
chasing a girl is jus like buying a car.
you will have a few things to consider.
color, type, model and many many more!
lets just touch on this few...

no discrimination and biaus remarks on intention.

COLOR - Style and Skin color.
in america, wait in every country, majority of people will marry someone of the same skin color, same fashion sense and talk on the same frequency.[And i mean like, 99.99999% of it!]

MODEL - Tall Short Thin Fat
let me ask this, if everything was free, would you choose a exotic sports car [lamboghini and stuff like that] or a run-down-tyre-poping-10th-owner type of car? same applies for your spouse! would you want her to be round like a ball, short as a stump or an hour glass figure with a cutie face?

TYPE - Cubic Centimeter (measure of volume of an engine)
would you want a girl who spends your money like gasoline and don't even bother about you[maybe false affection or virtual realationships] or one who treasures time with you[ no money required. jus wanna spend her remainding days with you]?

dare to say it's not true?
then 2 possibility for you
1. you'r jus escaping reality and living in a virtual world unknowingly.
2. you are jus to blind to differ virtual from reality.

theorys from the skies

2009-01-31T13:32:00.003+08:00

in this entire life of mine...
i've... created many theories....
some of them were already proven right...
the rest not yet...
but my most common theory for the down and out man,
is the aiming theory.
just as u are aiming your bow at the target board,
you will have to aim higher for the arrow to hit dead center...
just as in life...
if you wanna be some one, never settle for jus that position.
always aim higher
and if u fail?
its jus because of gravity! it pulls your arrow down!
so if it pulls you down means you will need more power in shooting.
more power = more attempts!
most important is never to give up.
as the devils favourite weapon is toying with your feelings(your heart).
and the moment you fail, he will say, "you can't do it. you are weak."
but nonetheless, as every action has a reaction,
he to have his opposite!
and that is god.
the devils harms, god saves!
god is always watching and there to help.
all you have to do is ask and belive.

summary: failing is not the end, giving up means THE end.

2009-01-22T22:06:00.002+08:00

hahahs~
huhuhoho~~~`
ever since i cut botah i became more crazy wor~~~
keep making crappy lame jokes and crazy stunts~~
ask my class mates... they know the horror~~~
woo hoo~~~

saw an accident the yesterday...
at beach road...
super retard wor...
the driver jus drove straight in to the truck carring poles...
pierced the car wind shield...
luckly no one was hurt~
=D

school school competition competition hospital hospital
so busy nowadays...
busy like a bee...
buzzing like a retard~
hahas~

biee biee~

2009-01-09T21:58:00.003+08:00

went to market in the morning...
helped mummy choose the ingredients for tonight's dinner
after that went home to do some cleaning...
actually have to go to china town to check the price for the aeromodeling...
but luckily i called ky to ask if they lefted school already or not....
miss angelia cancelled it...
then went back to the market there to eat lunch....
ate ayam penyet.....
IT WAS SUPER SHIOK WOR!!!!
the chilly is damm spicy and hot!
cool man....
now my hair is very different....
hahas~

toodles

new year, old problems

2009-01-07T18:50:00.003+08:00

school started...
problems rises....
not as in friends....
as in me....
i realised...
that i am having alot of problems in me to deal with....
been looking for a cure...
there has been a few that worked....
but after time...
it jus looses its effect....
but...
nonetheless....
i shall not give up....
i shall push on...
find the main causes....
and eliminate them....

toodles... =3

Species Of Singaporean

2009-01-04T14:26:00.002+08:00

1. Chinese "paikias"
The ones that has no creativity in using their insults thus repeating thesame vulgarities and the old catchphrase: "not happy ah?" they join gangswith stupid names like 369 and 18 and ang soon thong. their dress senseis horrible and alot of it shows their taiwanese wannabes but with a dashof the style was stolen from scene/emo (the real ones) people. USUALLYimmature around 13-16 years old.
Habitat: orchard, plaza sing, bugis.
Music: chinese pop, fall out boy, good charlotte, simple plan( the pop stuffwhich is very ironic as they act fierce but listen to pop stuff)

2. Malay gangster
very similar to the chinese paikias in terms on catchphrases and fashion sensedo not confuse malay gangsters with the malay scene/emo kids who actuallyreally know what music is all about. smokes like the chinese paikias. USUALLYaround 13-16,.
Habitat: orchard, plaza sing, city plaza, bugis.
Music: malay music, hiphop, sometimes pop-rock.

3. REAL "ah-bengs"
Thats right. they are NOWHERE between 13-16 and they dont go to schooland yet act uneducated. these are the REAL gangsters that the chinesewannabe youths try to imitate. they dont have the copied-from-emo hairstylebut have their hair all spiked up sometimes in a ponytail, sometimes bald.they wear gold chains and not skinny jeans/bugis bought stuff. NOT to beconfused with hiphop-wannabes. they dont know much english comparedto the chinese fakes.
Habitat: bukit batok, ang mokio, etc. (but fake chinese paikias tend togo there too)
Music: ???

4. Nerds
Self-explonatory. the type that studies and have ugly looks.
Habitat: home, school.
Music: literally non.

5. The Do-It-All preps.
They can study, they go out to watch movies, they ride bikes, they swim,they bowl. they Do-it-all. yet get good grades. their fashion may besimilar to the paikias but oh, well. you cant blame singaporeans from imitatingone another.
Habitat: orchard, cathay, anywhere thats "hip"
Music: mixture of chinese-pop, english-pop etc. sometimes hip-hop

6. REAL scene/emo kids
A really rare species. wears band-tshirts thats NOT MCR. my chemical romanceshirts are worn by fake emos. they dont wear bright colored skinnies likethe fakes and the paikias. they do rock scarves too. and studded belts is a must.
Habitat: only a few exist in this comformity country so ???
Music: real emo music definitely not mcr, fake out boy, etc.

7. REAL hip-hop kids.
They dont have the copycat hairstyles and dont wear the hats with the netthing by the back like those stupid paikias/malaygangsters. they wear NYhats and baggy clothes. and despises anyone thats fake hip-hop. (see also:the 2 breeds of "gangsters")
Habitat: orchard (the most)
Music: ja rule, the game, 36 mafia etc.

8. Uncles/Old-Men
They hate lee kuan yew. they hate PAP. and yet they cant do shiat about it.except complaining to their friends at coffeeshops and smoking and drinkingcoffee. a boring group. suprisingly, their female counterparts dont do this alot
Habitat: coffeeshops (have to be low class)
music: hokkien song.

9. Game-Maniacs
These are the people that made asiasoft and lanshops rich. give them 50$ and they get 40K @cash. they playdota all day long and get angry when someone ** their kill.Habitat: PC bunk. at home in front of their computersMusic: dota Background music, maple background music.10. Jocks (sports people)They wear anything thats adidas and nikes. if their poor, they wear fakes. They stay up late just to watch the world cup.and they play soccer, basketball. you get the idea
Habitat: Community clubs playing badminton. Soccer fields. Swimming pools.
Music: depends.

NOTE: both applies to female/males. so theres no discrimination

2008-12-29T12:02:00.002+08:00

YO PEOPLE!!!!!~~~~~
been a long time since i blogged...
so many people asked me to link them....
sorry... but i lost all your links...
the new year is starting and this year is ending....
very fast huh....
quite an eventful year it was for me....
so eventful that i'm still busy with stuff....
hahas~
well.....
so many new year wishes and goals....
but i still gotta say....
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
[and a belated merry christmas]
=]

2008-12-11T21:13:00.002+08:00

went to watch "bolt" today with mummy and mei
suppose to go guitar hunting ...
but change of plans at the last minute
rating for the movie is 3.5/5
good mix of scenes and sfx
visual... not bad especially the cute parts
ambience... not bad too... got some parts are touching....

after that went to buy guitar picks....
mummy's paying so didn't care bout the price....
total price.... 13.50SGD
hahas~
madness...
after that went to have ice cream and drove to peninsula....
still went guitar hunting in the end....
wanted to try out the sound quality of the heat hawk guitar
but it was damm hard to reach so i didn't get to play it....
but at least i played with the carbon fiber guitar.....
then went to bras pasar for more hunting...[dunno how to spell]
maybe i'm getting the amps from there...
guitar wise.... haven't decided which to get...
then went home...
and now?
i'm typing the post...
next?
sleep lor...

bye humans

exams over?!?!?!?

2008-12-04T19:25:00.002+08:00

aww....
i think i did badly for my exams.....
i'm screwed.......
hiax.....
but.... nvm
the day is still bright....
[though it is evening already]
hahas~
i wan my psp!!!!
its with marcus....
hiax....
nvm
mus learn to live with out comfort....
gotta go for cam in 2 weeks time....
wonder what i need for the camp......
shotguns.... bullets.... armor....
oops.... wrong stuff....
hahas~
going to pahang....
wonder where is that.... 0.0"

ALRIGHT!!!!

2008-12-03T22:47:00.002+08:00

Right....
today had a mock test....
didn't fare well....
at first tought the day is gonna be gloomy.....
but....
it is not...
i got to play for the prayer meeting....
hahas~
i messed up alot of time
yet ppl said it sounded good....
hahas~
god was there guiding....
i know it....
it's... hard to explain....
gonna change my life again.....
this time is internal.....
not as in my stomach is replacing my brain or something....
as in my maturity and humility that i'm gonna change....
hahas~
yeah~
alright then
nites nites~

BLESSED FELLOWSHIP YOUTH CAMP 2008

2008-11-23T19:32:00.003+08:00

Day one:
woke up at 3am to prepare for the long jouney to johor.
very shack and washed up.
meeting time was 4:30am at admiralty mrt station.
time i reach was 4:40am plus... LATE!!!
sat MPVs to senai airport, johor bahru.
flown in AIR ASIA's airbus to Kuching, Sarawak.
reached there around 8am plus.
travelled in cars to Blessed Fellowship church.
then went in for worship, grouping and briefing.
then we sat off for Santubong, Sarawak.
once we reach, we were to get ready
and go to the beach for team bonding games.
after that, we had dinner and went for sermon.
then we went to sleep....
made alot of new friends.

Day Two:
woke up early....
was kinda sleepy so i didn't know what i was saying fo 30mins.
got prepared and went for sermon. and worship.
then went back for lunch and bathe.
after that we lefted for games.
then the games.... i can't remembered what we played.
but overall was fun~
after that went to room....
was talking alot of crap with my room mates....
at night we went for worship and sermon....
such a long time since i worship like that.
after sermon had games....
super cool la the game.... hahs~
then go back for supper and talk crap again....
then sleep...

Day Three:
woke up damm early today.....
went to bible study in the morning as usual.
then back to eat, then sermon in the morning.
after sermon we got ready for the treasure hunt.
was very fun as many stupid things happened....
hahas
like placing your hair in water then in flour...
hahs~ was damm fun... but in the end we got 2nd place.
was an achivement wor....
after that was damm shack so we went back to freasen up and wnet for the next sermon....
at night we did not sleep
and aron actually wanted to draw on samuel's face....
but he was sleeping
and the accidentally woke him up and they ran away...
then unknowngly i became the next target...
lucky got ppl help me to escape....
then they drew on another person face....
then we did a lot of stupid stuff...
and my room mate went farting at the opposite room people's face!!!!
HAHAS~
then got ppl sae that crew members are making their rounds
so we hid....
but ended up sleeping

Day Four:
the person who got drawn woke up with a super funny reaction....
he go toilet, look in mirror.... stare.... then a very slow reaction....
he stare at himself and said....
"wei shen me wo pian chen zhe yang zhi de?"
"why did i become like that?"
hahas~
then we got ready our belongings and went to the hall...
we all got ready for departure....
then we lefted and i went to de summit to stay.
set ground rules for the boy's apartment at de summit.
they weren't easy rules....
there was sermon in the night too...

Day Five:
woke up early to bathe and stuff like tat....
was suppose to wake up very early for prayer meeting....
but we didn't go as every one was too tired
then we did a little sharing...
was anticipating my turn when we ran out of time.
so i had to wait for next day
went to crocodile farm and to the pottery.
at night, after we came back from sermon,
the boys can't sleep
so we played games
then suddently
we sat and do nothing
and wee boon said he wanted to watch tv....
but we were not allowed to use tv....
so aloy said
"in order to prove that we love each other as brothers,
we had to be the tv, the remote and the programs...."
so we acted and it really stupid....
then we said
hey lets make this intresting....
so we practised the "cool rhino ad"
hahas~
then we went to sleep.

Day Six:
woke up early and then we went for breakfast....
then off to "The Spring" for shopping.
bought 2 shirt that are nice
oh maybe la.... i dunno....
sherwynn was having a bad hair day....
so he ask me to spike his hair for him
the hair was very nice
but the clothes does not match.....
so he put his hair down
now he look wierd
but anyway did shopping
and then i bought cheese cake for the boys.
aloy bought a line there.... but it was expired....
so sad
after that we went back....
THEN!
my sharing time came
but
mine was scolding time....
hahas~
litteraly i scolded everyone....
but nvm.....
the main point is that i want them to be able to forgive openly...
after that went to church....
so many ppl wants to have pic taken wif me....
then home to sleep....

Day Seven:
last day....
time to wake up...
5:30am....
so tired....
then we went for morning service....
at the end of the service....
i slowly got swarmed by people for photo.....
starting to have those kind of fashion model feeling....
all the flashes and camera sound....
hahas... was very fun~
but was sad too....
i am leaving....
gonna miss so many people....
but....
i am gonna change my life for the better
gonna force my self to do quiet time.
i dun care....
but i gotta do it
for a better life style!

photo album of full trip
http://s448.photobucket.com/albums/qq202/blessedgraceyouth/

2008-11-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

the day was the same...
except that i accually doesn't need to go school!
i went to school.... then i know...
so i stayed around to help teacher.
went home later to change and go for music lessons...
then in the train i saw yien qing...
so long no see her le...
dunno wat to sae to her...
still as cute as ever....
and still keep disturbing me as ever oso...
hahas...
but fun to be around her la...
but she always offline de....
nvm....
got stwitch from bass to guitar.....
damm.... i'm like a chess piece u know....
always moving here and there...
hahas~
anyways i dun really mind...
cus i learned guitar before....
so should be jus like recap...
except for the chords...
hahhas....
so tired ....
my eyes are so dry man....

to reach my dream.... to reach up high....

trips~

2008-11-10T20:14:00.002+08:00

went on a tour to batam yesterday.
was kinda fun and educational =]
but a very very long trip....
hahas~
but in the end i still had fun~

monday....
went to school as usual...
had electrical practical exam....
damm.... if i never removed my goggles...
i would haved scored a damm high marks...
but no point regreting.... LEARN FROM IT!!!

after exam i went home to bathe
and prepare for the workshop at science center...
THEN!!!! got some ppl call call call....
hahas... but nvm la.... forgive and fortake... =]
hmmm....
so many things to do....
tml still got test..... sian sia....
hahahs.... need to perfect my design....
gonna have to go to science centere on friday again....

i'm.... a perfectionist......

where am i? no where

2008-11-05T13:43:00.002+08:00

u make decision with out me....
u choose to leave me and do your stuff....
now.... is tat called bonding?
u choose to order pizza when i am gone...
eat it all, leaving me out...
it is alright if it is only once....
but everyday?
then u come and scold me
say i wasting money when i want to order....
wat the crap....
all is about u, u and u....
never once was there me...
s0... where exactly am i?
no where?
i guess i am no where in your heart....

speak your heart... be definite!

2008-11-04T21:10:00.002+08:00

the heart...
the place that is always active 24/7
the area that is the mose fragile and soft...
that mask many softer part of the human life...
yet...
many people never take notice of it...
singaporean girls.... dun look at the heart nowadays....
they look at your face and your wallet....
guys nowadays....
are to fickle minded....
they always don't know what to do...
and never has the courage to be first to do the extraordinary...
is it really so hard?
is it so tormenting?
no right?
so wat if u fall?
so wat if u fail?
learn from it! pick your self up...!
no matter how many times u fail, it is not the end yet!
look at the sky, speak your mind!
face your fears and embrace your dreams!
life is never soothing... but harsh!
sometimes....
i am too like tat....
yeah it is easier said than done... but i learn from my failures...
the question now is...
are u going to be ordinary?
or extraordinary?
u choose your life....
u choose your path...
no one can force u.....
but.... live it using your brain....
not your ass....
youngester in singapore act as if they are some big F***!
they always rely on their parents money
and only dare to fight in groups....
isn't this shit?
where are their balls?
they always say "HUM ZHI IS IT?" (no balls is it?)
actual reality is thay they are talking about them self!
they speak about honor.... is backstabbing your friend honor?
they think they are matture jus because they have "BROTHERS"...
i bet my balls they will forget each other once they become adults....
but in the end... this is reality....
can't face it? change it....
and... be the first to step up and be extraordinary!

Damm... wat's wrong with me....

2008-11-03T20:40:00.002+08:00

my hearh kinda hurts...
not physically... but emotionally....
i dunno y too....
this is kinda stupid....
am i in love...?
i dun think so lea....
if i am i should be happy and anxious....
but no....
i will suddenlly become damm serious and emo....
like as if i am having periods....
grils are like tat during tat period...
BUT!!!! i am not a girl....
wats wrong with me....
i will suddenlly become jumpy and stuff like tat....
not like my self lea....
i feel.... stupid.... and retard....
jus like an egg tard...
hiax...
so wierd... this feeling....
sometimes i jus wish there is someone...
who will come up to me give me a hug....
i need a hug badly...

quiz

2008-10-31T22:39:00.004+08:00

Instructions :Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question ,make it a total of 20 questions .

Then tag 8 people in your list , list them out at the end of the post .

Notify them in their tagboard that he/she has be tagged .

1. What people done that will make you hate he/she most ?

- i dun really hate or dislike people... so... i don't really know... hahas~

2.What is your most favourite thing to do ?

- eat, sleep, breaking my limits~, going out, many many more~

3.What kind of news do you read ?

- the papers?

4.What is your ultimate wish ?

- to be able to love...

5. Is there someone in your heart right now ?

- no... who could i love with my horrible face =D

6. Do you believe you can survive without money ?

- yes~ i trust in god~

7. Are you afraid of pain ?

- no. wanna whack me?

8. What do you feel like doing right now ?

- plan for my competition and my future. (sadlly i don't have time to plan)

9. If theres someone you love , would you confess to him/her ?

- i... i can't...

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you .

- funny, bubbly and talk a ton lot!

11. What are your 5 most passionate things at this moment ?

- my god, my creations, my life, my friends, my family.

12. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life , what would it be ?

- shushi

13. If you have a chance to be rich or happy , which one will you pick ?

- happy~ being rich means nothing!

14. If you have a chance , which part of character you would i like change ?

-

15. If you are unhappy , what will you do ?

- emo? cry and reflect.
-sad? reflect and be quiet in my thoughts.
-heartborken? i be emo and do a ton load of crazy stuff!( i won't care if i die in the process)

16. What is the one thing you love most about yourself ?

- i dunno.... i think my counselling ablities?

17. What do you want most now ?

- to love and to be loved

18. If you could describe your friends one word, what would it be ?

- unique

19. What is the perfect outing/date to you?

-me and my partner lying on a patch of grass with head to head, looking at the moon and apprecitating each other. Then, fireworks are shot in to the sky. wouldn't that be sweet?

20. what is my dream?
-so far... it is to go japan to study.... i need cash....
i wanna learn and feel good about it!

tagged~
-gatti
-yeoming
-yan hao
-mable
-yuqi
-agnes
-yu xuan
-chanel

my future?

2008-10-29T21:09:00.003+08:00

i don't know what to do!!!
I WANNA GO JAPAN TO STUDY!!!!
but yet... i am afraid to fail...
i want someone to company me...
but who!!!
yuqi?
shuki?
damm...
jus so flustered up right now...
it would jus be nice...
if someone of the same intrest would go...
if only... if only... if only i could say it out...
my dream....
i have never told anyone my dream before...
its probablly too stupid...
i don't know what to do...
my heart is torned up...
i wanna go to a japanese high school...
i wanna go to japan to study....
i wanna do so many things!!!
but time does not allow...
"too many things... yet too little time...."-Magoichi Sakai
sigh....
if only yuqi or shuki would go with me...
AND I"VE NEVER ASK THEM!!!!
probablly cus i think they will laugh...
hiax....
my heart... is messed up...

bottled up feelings

2008-10-20T21:48:00.003+08:00

sometimes...
i jus wanna tell you something...
i jus have so many things i wanna ask u...
each day i enticipate you smses...
yet i don't get any...
maybe i should have said it last year...
but i was a coward and changed the story...
maybe i should have never let u go...
maybe...
jus maybe...
if time can rewine....
i would go to the day when i was with u...
the time which i turned away...
but i won't turn away this time...
but yet look in too your eyes and say i want you to be mine...
if only...
that day will come once more...
i belive you already have someone on you heart...
and it is guranteed ain't me...
if only...
i could be with you once more...

Chapter 2 - long update

2008-10-14T22:25:00.002+08:00

YOS~~~
been a while since i updated my blog...
sorry joyce for not updating tat time~
Gomenasai!!!

school start liao...
can't say my holis are fun....
but beats being craping around everyday!

many people are having examination stress...
even though it is over for some...
many are having relationship problems...
but i shall not say it...

in whatever situation u are in,
should u fall, rise and walk again.
should u fall again, rise again.
failure is not the end but ending it your self IS failure.

with great power, comes great responsibility!
talents are give for a reason and it is to be use for good.
so do not hide your talents but let it shine!

Pride usually comes before a fall.
no matter how old u are, humble your self
and u will see that people will love u more.

obedience is something that is complicated for youngsters nowadays.
but it actuallies helps improve your life!

that is the tips i'm giving you young kids and peoples out there!
trust me... u won't regret!

CHINA'S MILK?!?!?!

2008-09-23T15:32:00.002+08:00

hmm....
trouble hit diary products from china
and many of them have been removed from super markets.

Chong Nyet Chin, director, Food Safety and Quality, NTUC FairPrice, said: "We also take some precautionary measure on our end. We see whether there are other products which may not be made in China but the source of the raw material was purchased from China."

So fo those of you who hates milk, shout, THANK GOD!!!
for those who loves chocolate, say, damm....
products recalled includes,
m&m, snickers, mento's yoghurt, oreo, dove choco, monmilk, dutchlady milk, wall's ice cream, magnum ice cream, moo moo ice cream, mini cornetto and youcan ice cream.

damm.... i love ice cream... now i can't eat them... T^T
so sad... hahas....
so ya... be careful with what you eat nowadays~

archery competition day 1

2008-09-17T22:24:00.001+08:00

todays archery was fun~
saw many "eye food" and crazy scores!
i am TOP 2ND!!!!!!(in my college only... SIAN!!!)
but i was top 7.... they show as 8...
hahas~
i think got typo or something...
but... nvm...
hahas
still fun to shoot~
went to celebrate mei mei's birthday today.
saw shawn at lot 1.
crap la...
my family go buy food then he say i pathetic...
wa lao....
so bad...
joyce some more keem saying i evil...
lol....
JOYCE IS EVIL!!! XD

hahas....
nea nea pupu =P

2008-09-15T21:24:00.002+08:00

FINALLY!!!
no more work!
big load off my shouders!!!
and perfect timing too~
exams are coming and i could study more...
hmm....
not bad~
hahas~
i think my manager thinks i am bluffing....
hahas....
i bet he's shock that i really DO have a one week mc...
hahas...
anyways... i gotta slp liao...

a trip to the hospital

2008-09-07T21:20:00.003+08:00

was admited to the hospital after being refered from a private hospital at 3am.
doctors says i have hernia.
it was painful... but short while after i prayed, the pain was gone.
but i was filled with life and joy.
even at the hospital, while getting an injection, i would usally freak out!
but this time i am laughing... to the extend of talking crap!
they took 4 bottles of blood, a urine sample and filled me with potassium chloride!
my hand was completely weak. but it was good... if not i won't be able to sleep!
the neddle was also in a very wierd place...
they place it at my joints! then i can't bend my arms...
hmmm... i need to go back on the 25...
need to go for check up... then they will say weather i need an operation or not...

some pics

my breakfast menu~

mi lunch~

what they made me wear on my wrist

hellooooo cousin~

2008-09-05T22:10:00.002+08:00

alright!
hong ting came my house to stay~
its kinda cool cus we haven seen each other for a long time...
so its knida like a flashback to the past!
ok... i crapping again...
archery today was kinda fun...
managed to shoot a few Xs...
and got asked by a girl, "Are you gay?"
...
ZZZ.....
WHATTTTT!!!!!!
i ain't gay.... just very hyperactive and crap~
hahas....

A LETTER TO MY LITTLE BROTHER.

2008-09-03T23:58:00.003+08:00

Dear little brother Nelson,
you might not know the pain i feel when i see your eyes red with tears.
you might see me as a jerk but thats alright.
i have hurted u yet time and time again.
but i assure you, you are always the number brother i have.
many people call me brother, but they are to be compared to you.
you might think that i look down on you, but i have never been ashamed to tell others you are my brother.
i have scolded you many times. sometimes with words i did not thought i would say,
but everytime i scold you i feel the pinch.
all i wanted is for you to grow up and be somebody successful. more successful then me if possible.
i didn't mean to hurt your feelings.
i still remember the time when i took your ice-cream and made you cry when we were small.
it is too late to say sorry, but please accept my apology.
it is hard to be a older brother but it brings be joy to be able to watch you grow though we are just one year apart.
if heaven permits i would like to be able to spent more time with you, to play games with you, to be able to learn with you.
we might not be twins be i treat you no lesser than i would treat myself.
i would do anything to ensure your safety and well being.
you might not know but many times i have cried for you.
i woulden't mind dying in exchange for your safety and joy.
cus all i ever wanted is to see you become a sensible young man.

kimi o ai shiteru akei .

START OF A NEW CHAPTER, END OF AN OLD LIFE.

2008-09-03T18:17:00.002+08:00

its been a while since i blogged.
heres a major update~
been having a rest from work and it has jus ended.
my birthday is over... no presents... hahas
starting to be responsible to my studies and life...
gonna learn music more seriously...
aiming to be a pilot!

been to the air show with my class mates on the 28 of august...
1 day before my birthday... so "fitting"...
it was kinda fun and educational...
BUT I MISSED THE SHOOTING!!! sob sob T^T"

i was able to improve on my studies... FINALLY!!!
jus realised that i should jus stop taking things so lightly...[ thanks to the big loads of projects!]
saw my class advisor cry a few times... [WHERE'S MY APPLE!!!]
archery competition coming soon... needa train and improve...

I don't know if i am still going to continue working or not...
but i am comfirmed staying till Setember ends.[wake me up... when setember endsss...]
knida bored this few days...
basic routine is 5am, wake up go school, 5 30 pm, go work, 12am go sleep...

times are hard... been planning to get a touch screen laptop/notebook...
don't know where to get a good yet cheap one...[ i want hand built ones!!!]
tought of geting a fujitsu one...don't know worth it or not...

SATURDAY DRUM TRAINING!!!! MUS WAKE UP!!! I MISSED ALOT OF LESSONS ALREADY!!!!
crap....
i don't know why but i jus can't wake up on saturdays!!!
need help!!!

i think i have fallen for....

2008-07-24T15:36:00.002+08:00

ok~~~~
haven been blogging for a while...
here's wat happen for the last few days....

tuesday....
went to sch as usual...
did nothing much and brought shoes for nothing....
went to work later....
walk at shi jis block...
hahas....
go in see untill leroy watching tv~
hehes... so cute...
after that nearly got lost walking back....
lucky i rmb wat 2nd uncle said...
reached home ard 12.... too tired to online....

wednesday.....
go sch again...
then pe so bored sia...
ended playing basket ball.... again....
after that go straight to work... smelling horrid....
then go do installation at 5th uncle house for the max online....
ben and koko make me malu lar....
keep calling me boss boss....
ZZZ....
then i test the internet by going to my blog.... and they say my stupid face.... T^T
somemore anyhow sabo me ba saeing that i no go school but go watch movie!!!
AHHHHHHH!!!! >.<
went home and sleep... online for a while....

today....
go sch watch movie...
i cried watching... T.T
so touching lor...
then later got some short clip recording for national day....
they make me stand with marilyn.... so embrassing....
somemore teacher treat us eat kfc...
hiax....
the love only a teacher can give... T^T
anyway i still haven't bathe =X
so now going to bathe~ bies~~~~~ =3

2008-07-21T00:47:00.002+08:00

ZZZ
today go work never even walk...
but still have 4 sales....
god give one =3
then 6 something follow daddy go jurong point eat...
meet up wif mummi and ah kong ah ma oso...
go the hong kong restaurant eat....
the food was good... but forgot to take picture to upload =D
the price is still ok.... considering it was a restaurant...
$5 for a bowl of noodles... $6 for a bowl of noodles with chicken drumstick....
then eat le go arcadde play... didi tap so many times on initial d....
then they closing...
somemore the game auto continue...
and i kana scolded...
hiax....
sian.....
but nvm...
i kor kor so i forgive...
hahas....
anyways i gonna slp le...
nites =3

2008-07-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

today work work work then "sun pian" go san jie house tok cock....
hahas.... today walk her block ma....
then she give me potato chip wor... big big packet...
she so nice lor...
let me play piano oso~ =3
i oso go her house then rmb my max online customer...
if not i only one sales wor...
so sad... =[]
hahahs....
i better go bath and sleep le...
later tml slp in class again =X

2008-07-12T02:03:00.006+08:00

jus came back from a day out with family and elvin...
we go jurong point shopping then to jurong entertainment...
played arcade at enter....

got a whole lot of sweet from the machine and 3 soft toys!!!

the soft toy all for mei mei...

but she give me the pillo one...

total spending on that machine alone... $55

boom goes our wallets!!!

picture time~

WTC??? it got stuck there...

a big bunch of sweet and 3 toys~

*ehem* i taking this home.... =P

2008-07-11T01:08:00.002+08:00

i taought u were matured...
looks like i was wrong...
just one stupid action... just one...
can't u just leave me alone when i sleep?!?!?!?
must u come and take a photo?!?!?!?
somemore with some monkey making stupid actions at me...?!?!?!?
hahhas....
u did a good job...
IN PROVING ME WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-07-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

ok... school was kinda stupid today...
i made myself look like an ass...
go in class late...
teacher sae my hair long... i bow... no words....
then while walking, miss angel sae hi good morning... i bow... no words... whole class laugh....
then teacher say got grouping... i left with jonathan, feng ji, kim lai...
they sae with feng ji.... seriously... i and him is ok la... we can get together... but we won't study lor...
so i choose jonathan...
kim lai lea.... i oso dun mind... but i scared got conflict...
so ya... jonathan in the end...
after school go eat EXPRESS TEPANYAKI!!!!
shiok sia.... the food so shiok... spicy, hot and large serving...
but not fair lor... wee nam got extra portion as the guy cook extra.... shit.... y no give me sia...
i wan lor... but nvm.... god provides...
then later reach home...
shit... i try o go for work lor... but fell asleep...
then wake up around 830 like tat....
then later go cut hair...
cus i later kana caught...
caught=no more school~~~
so ya...
its like tat...
oh.... and i made mable mei mei so angry today sia...
so sorry mei mei... dun angry kaes...

2008-07-06T21:04:00.002+08:00

been listening to L'Arc~en~Ciel songs recently...
i dun really think i should listen to it.... but it is really nice~
good band... good singers.... superb overall!
hahas....
too bad... i dunno how to put song here...
if not let your listen wor... =[
needa go bathe ler.... bie~

2008-07-05T19:10:00.000+08:00

saddening events....
heartbreaking facts...
and a whole lot of things to change in me...
my boss mother-in-law passed away...
even though i ain needed there...
i felt i have to go....
its not jus a boss-employee relationship...
its a friend-friend relationship...
he treats us all like good friends....
so i feel kinda bad if i don't go... stayed there till 3... c
ome home sleep but could not wake up...
ended up waking up at 5pm!!!
crap... i missed my drums lesson....
didn't go church today....
hiax...
so many things to put...
but i needa cook...
needa change my words of choice....

2008-07-04T00:00:00.002+08:00

dear destiny...
hahas~
i don't need to know u to help u rite?
cus i dun need to know you to know the pain you felt...
y? 0.o?
u can sae that i have been in your shoes before...
very painful to be hurt by someone you love.
i know. but rmb...
always look at the brighter side of it and smile everyday!
cus everyday is a good day no matter how bad it is
=3
u might have lost something important.
but u need to let go in orther to get something better~
=3
so live life happily kaes?
apple and i are always here if u need someone to talk to...
=D

~smile as the day ahead is gonna get better cus god is always watching over us~

2008-07-03T07:27:00.002+08:00

lol... jus came back from night cycling....
wasted 3 hours waiting for koko and esther to come...
somemore i mus tom pang esther to my house... okok la... she not heavy...
but i ended up making 2 trips to and fro from my house....
cus when we go find them tat time... i realise my bike the tubing broken... so go back and change to a small bike... i think the size of a bmx ba... not sure.... then cycle all the way to lim chu kang.... then to choa chu kang...make my leg so pain...crap nvm... but have to leave one bike at koko house cus i only have 2 legs... and riding 2 bikes needs 4 legs... so yar.... cycle a total of 5.5 hours non-stop starting at lakeside(1.30) and back to lakeside(7.00). so long never cycle le... but i used to the pain.... hahas.... need to sleep le... nights~

2008-07-01T15:44:00.002+08:00

hmm.... reached ecp late yesterday...
reason? got lost half-way!!! hahas!
i like idiot walk one damm big round...
then find until the underpass...
lol... go there cook and eat... then cycle like idiot...
cycle half way the pedal drop out....
hahahs!!! like wat lor.... hahas...
later go back they sae go macdonals...
we go ther eat again... =.="
after that they go play lan.... but i too tired...
so i go home...
then later go home.... come home le go bathe then slp...
hiax....sch starting next week.... sian wor....

2008-06-26T02:15:00.002+08:00

hmmm...
SD-night is coming....
means more fun and game???
hehes
i will be there splashing water!
hoho...
will be bring skates there...
so hope i gonna rmb how to skate...
cus i only ice skate... shoes are lighter.... blah blah blah....
and i gonna eat a whole lot on that day!! woo hoo!!!
but sian....
next day school start hahahs... =.="
getting used to holiday life style lor....
now need study.... but nvm.... study good....
hahas....
=3

no girlfriend/boyfriend? enjoy singlehood while you still can... cus when you get attached, its the end of freedom for you.... a whole big bunch of commitment comes falling on your head!!!!

2008-06-24T04:24:00.005+08:00

I was reading this as I posted the previous post so I thought of sharing it.
Listen to God and he shall provide for all your needs. Even if it sounds impossible, nothing is impossible for the Almighty One!
[Now Eijah the Tishbite, from Tishbe in Gilead, said to Ahab,"As the Lord, God of Israel, lives, there will be neither dew nor rain in the next few years except at my word." Then the word of the Lord came to Elijah:" Leave here, turn eastward and hide in the Kerith Ravine, east of the Jordan. You will drink from the brook, and I have ordered the ravens to feed you there." So he did waht the Lord had told him. He went to the Kerith Ravine, east of the Jordan, and stayed there. The ravens brought him bread and meat in the morning and bread and meat in the evening, and he dranked from the brook.]
[1KINGS 17:1-6

2008-06-24T04:08:00.004+08:00

hmm.....
when u think of the past....
u always find that god is always there!!!
especially when you needs him most!!!
jus like that time when i broke my ankle....
it was pain like crap!
but the moment i prayed,
he tooked the pain away!
even though i see nothing,
i felt his embrace that time!
even when u don't know,
he is always with u,
together with his angels to look after you,
day by day, night by night, seconds by seconds,
even till the day u lay in bed never to woken up again,
he is still looking after you!
cus his love is too deep to be described!
he would give an army in exchange for your safety!
so loving god is not a crime.
its an act of devotion towards him!
so we should put him first in our hearts!
"You shall have no other gods before me."[EXODUS 20:3]

2008-06-23T14:03:00.002+08:00

okk.... so my sales are rising again...
but is my faith rising? hmm....
that i need to train wor...
most important thing in my life is god....
first in my heart...
y?
cus he made me!
died for me!
and is still alive!
so of course he is first!
and i will love him non-stop!
hehes=3

curel truth!

2008-06-21T16:27:00.002+08:00

do u love me? yes u do!
do i love u? yes i do!
can we be together? never!
why? cus we jus can't get along...
the fault is not with u... but i guess its me after all...
i guess... this is good bye...
hope u get a better guy.... someone who is way better than me...
as for me... i guess i am gonna be single for a long time...
unless someone is gona sae "i love u" to me again...
so.... i will pray for your safety and happyness... even though we ain together...

sayonara...itoshigo....
さよなら.... いとしご ....
arigatougozaimasu ....
ありがとうございます.....
eiketsu....
えいけつ....

2008-06-19T14:30:00.002+08:00

well..... i guess this is it....
forget it.... i won't take one last chance as an answer....
so... jus disappear.... get out of my head....
now is the time.... the time for me to shine for the glory of god!
like it or not i don't care! but i will shine in speech,life,love,faith and purity!
so... pls... no more.... enough hurt.... enough crap.... enough pain....
i'll make sure i change in his name for sure!

i guess.... u won't cry if i died.... but jesus will be there to wait for me! =3

yet a starrless night.... hiax

2008-06-18T00:53:00.002+08:00

its always like this....
i like her, she like me...
then suddendly....
she says.... "i ain good enough for you..."
always like that....
crap....
i never get what i want...
from young till now....
i guess.... my life sux after all...
WAIT!!! ain that what the devil want me to think????
so of course my life dun sux.... it jus ain shining yet....
so not yet.... wait till i can shine~
theres always light at the end of the tunnel~

starless night

2008-06-17T01:59:00.002+08:00

to my amazement....
there wasn't any stars in the sky tonight...
such a saddening event... hiax...
but yet... the sky still shine brightly...
cus even in the darknes... light is still there cus of the moon...
jus like how i am here.... always there if people needs help....
so if u ever need help and need someone, call me!
seriously.... I will help u!

story of the day....
my sales and a girl....

didn't get any sales today.... but thats alright!
cus in the end i still have something to fall back on~
ask her if she got any sales... the ans was no...
but don't be disheartened jus yet!
cus long days ahead are still waiting~
surely u can hit the target~
jus fly higher and u'll be there!
so jus belive, and spread your wings!
cus if you fall i will be there to catch~
and if i were to see you fly, i too will sure fly~
so jus give it a try! hehes =3

If i were to die one day.... will you cry for me?

2008-06-13T23:39:00.001+08:00

'Lord, I love you and I need you, come into my heart, and bless me, my family, my home, and my friends, in Jesus' name. Amen.'

2008-06-13T21:40:00.005+08:00

just came back from camp at jalan lekar...
so tired... 4d3n camp...
the camp was fun and enjoyable!
so fun!
learned many new things~
also made many friends =3
and we also won the the overall~
bonded the most in my team too~
hahas~ first time i felt so happy in church camp~
had so many games~
the pastor gave a suberb sermon~
and the camp was not led by the camp commander!
it was led by GOD!!!
day one, team one[revelation] wins!
day two, team two[romans] wins!
day three, team three[acts] wins!
some more during the acting, we got our turns according to our team nunbers!
team one, team two, team three!
got so much of a coincidence mea?
its impossible lor~ but it was god's doing~
thats why... i finally forgave~
my heart feels so light now~
and during the last night~
i was the head chef~ woo hoo!
me and a small kid.
guide the rest in cooking~
the kid, around pri 6 only!
cook better than the pre-adults and some adults!
another one of god's work!
we also walk round the cementry!
actually was damm peaceful lor...
i scare myself only... hahahas~
listen to ppl say cementry damm scary at night...
all ghost and all... but end up got nothing...
but... i gotta change my way of thinking!
i still stuck at worldly thinkings... mus change to christian thinking!
cus i keep scarying my self with crappy thinking of night walking rules...
turns out they are fake...
wat dun shine on tree la... cannot call name la...
all shit lar.... they jus wanna create atmosphere only lor...
then anyhow talk crap... hahahas~
seriously... this camp was not like any other camp!

2008-06-07T08:14:00.002+08:00

woooot!!!!
bathed twiced in less than 4 hours...
y???
jus came back from intensive excercise!
and i mean intensive...
1 hour....
non-stop excercise...[serious!]
tired?
rest 5 mins...[jog on the spot]
continue...
wat it consist of?
the time table...
6am... wake up!
630am... jog from my house to park[roughly... 200m]
645am... jog from end 1 to end 2 of park! 4.6 km!!!]
745am... push up...[10 set of 10]
8am... pull ups...[5 set of 3]
815... jog back...[another 200m]
total time taken... depends la... see i got slack not...
hahahas.....
reach home take cold bath.....
first time cold bath feel so shiok!
hahahas...
i gonna try this every morning...
train me to be responsible and to eundure...
if i did improve.... i gonna do it every morning!
=3

2008-06-05T00:05:00.004+08:00

today human factor exam...

no more exam le...

now holidays...

then...

i went out with gat, yao ming, yuda, jia wei and leslie...

go celebrate jia wei birthday...

took some time for us to decide which shop to eat at...

then stop outside a shop

called white dog...

the lady talk to us for so long...

then no eat...

walk one big round...

then go eat at the shop beside the white dog....

hahahhas

she stare at us lor...

pictures taken whille eating...

2008-06-03T15:35:00.001+08:00

HAPPY B'DAY JIAWEI!!!

MAY YUR WISHES COME TRUE!!!

SMILE MORE KAYES!!!

=3

2008-06-03T01:25:00.002+08:00

MONDAY~
waaa....
so long since i got no sales in one day sia....
so disappointed....
but never mind la....
koko give me a limited edition nike shoe....
he sae now sell can get around 400 dollars...
hahahas.... keep disturbing him sae the shoe like shit like tat...
now need slp le...
nites everyone~

2008-06-01T01:51:00.004+08:00

pics for yesterdays k box~

went out with frens today...

go arcade play...

see untill work fren...

then we go gai gai...

we go play around with the shop things lor...

woo hoo! i got long hair!!!
hair transfer~
who this idiot sia...

actually the idiot is me la.... hahas

bored ma nothing to do so go play the hair.... hahahs

then later we go jurong play arcade till closed...

then i ask mummy come fetch me...

they debate on who should sit sia...

i tell them all can cus big car...

then.... all go sit bus...

left one girl....

so malu sia....

i and her....

in the car.....

with mummy and didi....

so stupid....

somemore mummy ask me walk her to the house....

haiyo....

big misunderstanding sia...

nothing hapening...

even if i wanted there to be i oso can't get it...

cus i jus too ugly...

hiax....

hahahas~

2008-05-30T22:44:00.003+08:00

go kbox with yao ming gattison and yuda...
got others but i dunno them one
hohoho
except regina[obaasan] and cheryl.
later go eat....
then need go funeral for a friend...
but didn't go cus need do work...
hiax
feel bad sia...

2008-05-30T03:34:00.001+08:00

wahahahaha!!!!
got 5 sales today!!!
so happy!!!second time so many!!!
but need run back find qy....
then so tired sia.... lol
tml gonna go kbox sing song with gat, xuan ke, and ming...
i wanna sing wif ming!!!
hohoho
=3

2008-05-29T00:26:00.002+08:00

wa lao...
my teacher standard damm high sia...
last time 75%...
then go 80%....
now 98%....
hard to hit sia...
somemore monday exam le...
hiiax... so packed...
mus hit 31 sales this month...
then i get extra 150 for my self!!!
but...
should be able to la...
hehes=3
i don't know who is in my heart now...
sob sob

2008-05-28T01:09:00.002+08:00

its been awhile...
since i felt this presence...
the warmth and comfort...
its been awhile...
since i cried for you...
please forgive me...
for the wrongs i said...
the the actions i made...
for the words i made....
pls let me feel your love again...
with the warmth of your embrace...
with the comfort of your arms...
with the cover of you wings...
wash my heart...
make it pure...
use my hands...
to make wonders...
may the words i say....
be words of blessing and worship...
i pray this in your name...
amen!

wow...
elvin prayed for me today...
long time since i cry...
it was like something jus filled the hole in my heart...
felt so good...
i made a decision...
and its final...
i gonna go back to god...
and love him wholeheartedly...
gonna lead a life like his...
holy and pure...
i wanna be like him...
cus i love my god jesus christ!!!!
YES!!!! I LOVE MY LORD JESUS CHRIST!!!!!

2008-05-24T23:54:00.002+08:00

go find gattison and her today....
but dunno wat to sae when i saw her...
torn between two feeling...
dun even know if i am her friend...
i mean...
we hardly even know each other...
see each other oso no sae hi...
total lost of words...
even if i wanted to talk to her...
i oso dunno wad to sae...
everytime see her....
toungue tied...
gatti ask...
y i so cold to her...
the problem is....
i don't even know her....
how to be warm to her?!?!??!
wat the shit?!?!?!
i dun even know he birthday...
i only know....
her name!!!!!
how to even be warm to her!!!!
she is like a stranger to me!!!!!
argh....
forget it...
any way when i and gatti go jurong entertainment jus now...
got a girl come find us....
i oso dunno who...
hahahs...
go home my bro ask me go play lan wif him and joy....
but i never go in the end...

wat a day... =3

2008-05-21T01:27:00.002+08:00

hmm... i think i wanna remove my tag box le...

i put like not in use like tat... waste time and space...

today come back frm sch... dun feel like going to work....

in the end still go... then later ii got no sales....

wasted my time... if i know i jus stay at home lor...

now so tired.... going to sleep...

2008-05-20T00:45:00.002+08:00

wooo!!!
went ktv with my work mates today!
wa... koko sing damm nice lor...
some more super high pitch lor...
even though today no sales...
i am happy cus i enjoyed it very much...
=3
hahas...
dunno wats wrong with me this morning...
head damm pain and can't even think properly...
somemore need walk in the super hot sunlight...
make my head more pain only...
then later koko buy panadol give me eat...
but no water... then he call me eat it with watermellon...
lol... some more i stupid go try...
lol
taste damm bitter lor...
some more the pill still in my mouth....
but go people give me water to drink la...
hahas
wat a day...

2008-05-19T00:38:00.002+08:00

wow...
today got flu go piano lesson can't even play a single song...
keep sneezing then can't think...
later go work...
the blks sux lor... everyone not at home one...
but at least i got 3 sales...
but all at night one...
tml i might be going karoke wif my college...
but need work at 11 then can get a treat =3
hiax...
i guess its time to sort out true friends from people who
USE ME OR CAN'T BE COUNTED AS A FRIEND!!!!
dun worry...
people from church are under the USE ME section...
i will sort everyone... and anyone...
so... i think i will be lefted with a few peoples i can call brothers...
a few i can call friends....
AND A FEW I CAN CALL JACKASSES!!!
yup... jackasses are gonna be the most...
cus i think i have many friends who are using me only...
even if u sae no... the truth can't hide...
i treasure friendship... if u were to fall i will catch...
but... i dun think if i fall u will catch me... RIGHT???
i might choose to keep contact... but...
dun expect the same treatment i give to u guys last time...

2008-05-17T00:47:00.002+08:00

went out today...
wasted 1.5 hrs waiting fer adrina...
damm... her maid got att prob lor...
later go je wif gatti...
play initial d then time crisis4.. lol i suk lor...
then go eat korean food... forgot the shop name le...
later xuan le come find us... followed by debra and her fren...
hiax...
suddenlly i emo... dunno wat strucked my heart...
hiax...
sian...
stupid day...

2008-05-16T01:05:00.002+08:00

hiax...
today go sch...
come back with fever...
dunno wanna go sch tml not..
so sick...
feel like dead...
sometimes...
things jus dun turn out the way u want it to be...
it always work the opposite way...
dunno wats gonna happen now...
feel so sad for him...
having this kind of girlfriend is such a curse...
after all the effort he went through to make her happy...
some people are jus too inconsiderate...
hiax... wat a day...

2008-05-11T00:51:00.004+08:00

went out with kerin today...
lol...
she still look the same...
but more bo-liao and bitchy...=X
then she go meet her fren...
wa lao sia...
all so young smoke liao...
some more all like...
wtc!!! why are they doing thi to them self?!?!?!?!
okok...
enough insult....
got one boy damm cute lor...
keep saying kerin...
hahahas....
kerin kana bully ny small boy...
then later go church...
wa lao...
i dun wan go the camp...
need train my band...
they sign me up and it's like damm...!...!...
now i gotta go for the crapy camp...
shit...
so some ppl...
still the same...
treat me as if i am so darn important...
all jus a stupid act...
but too bad...
lousy acting...
feel like slaping them and sae...
HEY!!! DUN PUT UP A SHITTY ACT...!!!!!
I KNOW YOU GUYS DON'T LIKE ME SO BE IT!!!!
NOW I LEFT THE CHURCH AND U ARE ALL SHORT OF PEOPLE!!!
SO U COME TO ME?!?!?!
WHY DON'T U STICK YOUR HEAD UP YOUR ASS AND SEE IF IT FITS!!!!!!!!
posers...
hate this kind of people...
call me wat brother...
bleah...
last time treat me as bank...
now become brother...
wa lao...
please la...
want bluff go bluff little kid la...
later go my uncle house...
wa lao... feel so bad lor...
he buy food for me... i no eat...
instead i go eat mac...
next time i treat him liao la...
=D
but still feel bad...
then later play with leroy and the piano...
he soooooooo cute lor....
give him lollipop then he take...
hold then give back...
lol....
hahas
but scary lor...
my big cousin damm power la...
he set the standard for his gf is like so damm high la...
the next guy tat takes over is like so in deep shit lor...
wa lao eh...
scary lor...
but....
wat he is gonna do is.... TOP SECRET....
---NOT TO BE POSTED IN BLOG---
hahas....
not gonna tell...
bleah.... >P
lol... gatti go kbox no jio me...
so sad sia...
make me more emo only...
sob sob...
kayes.... time to slp le=}
nites everyone!!! mucks =3

2008-05-09T16:08:00.002+08:00

the sorrow i felt...

the pain i feel...

everything i wanted...

smashed on the floor...

why is it that...

i can never get what i want...

feel left out in this world...

a world with love not ment for me...

a world with nothing but the sorrows that i felt...

everything was perfect...

but perfect didn't last long...

don't know how long i will be left in this world...

jus feel like ending it all...

wanna stop this pain and sadness...

so pain sometimes i can't even feel a thing...

u all said u will be there...

but u didn't even call to ask...

catch me when i fall?

ya right!!! what an ass am i...

to ever belived in those stupid lies...

those words said on impulse...

No Action Talk Only!

she said everything will be alright...

she will be with me...

but now she is with another guy...

now that i have fallen...

i can't even get up on my own...

AND NO ONE IS EVEN STOPPING TO HELP!

looks like even when i choose to change...

a second chance can't be given...

looks like this is the end for me...

i jus hope that this can just be granted to me...

2008-05-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

wooo...
i love durians!!!
jus ate it jus now...
yummy!!!
went to church this evening...
the youths act as if they so close to me...
irritating lor...
feel like breaking his arm...
hiax nvm...
the leader also said some things that hit me real hard when i think bout it...
my heart really did turned cold...
and i ain't the person i used to be...
hiax... i didn't know i changed so much...

2008-04-30T00:54:00.003+08:00

shit...so many things in one week...
fall sick on monday...
doctor sae need see a specialist...
tuesday go school then the teacher said
i can get de-barred if i continue to be absent...
then go work get only one sales today...
somemore when i going home got one freaking idiot
call and scold me sae that i intrude her personal information...
please lor... sh is EX-starhub user of course starhub will have her name la...
come say i steal her personal information...
think she the presidental daughter of damm pretty is it....
i think she look like shit lor... worse than the toliet cleaner aunty lor...
stupid crap...
feel like going to her house give her one big slap to the face...
BUT!!!
BAI REN CHEN QING!!! =]
100 endurance turns to gold!!!
a motto for salesmen!!! =]

2008-04-24T23:33:00.002+08:00

i feel stupid...

i nearly fought with my friends!?!?!?!

come on nick!!!

dun rush in to fights!!!

keep your cool man...

no innocents...

be a gentleman...

sorry man...

didn't mean for it to happen...

2008-04-24T16:08:00.002+08:00

hahas!!!
i fell asleep in the train...
nearly miss yishun station...
miss then no need go school liao...
lucky kelvin wake me up lor...
i wake up so many ppl look at me...
so malu...
go school sleep the whole dae only lor...
...

2008-04-23T01:46:00.003+08:00

ok...

so far the band got it members...

but...

i still need a bass and drummer who can play...

then the band is complete...

so i really need your help...

i look so ugly...acting cute...

2008-04-21T00:06:00.002+08:00

do i have attitude problem?
DO I HAVE ATTITUDE PROBLEM!!!!!!
i need to know my bad points!!!!
i wanna change!!!!
i dun wanna be hated and disliked by people i meet...
i wanna be some one love by all including strangers...
i want the truth...
dun care about what i feel...
i jus wana know my bad points so just say it in my face...
just sae it... pls...
take it as i am begging...

band members needed!

2008-04-20T01:52:00.002+08:00

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payday!

2008-04-20T01:49:00.000+08:00

woot!!! payday!!
go my first paycheck...

2008-04-14T00:57:00.001+08:00

hiax...
school starts tommrow...
still working...
not feeling well...
and i am so freaking tired...
selling starhub cable vision for a damm low price...
call me if u wanna buy
81866410

2008-04-10T00:28:00.003+08:00

so many of my friends are emo sia...
see them emo i oso sad lor...
used to be smiling all the way with no fear...
now all emo...
they emo i oso emo sia...
hiax...
emo...
emo...
y all oso emo...

2008-04-01T00:19:00.002+08:00

i changed a bit...(or so it seems)
i decided...
cut down on vulgar words...
try to be independant...
be more sensible...
be mature...(finally!)
be respectful...
be obedient...
be more generous...
be humble...
be thankful at all times...

i learned...
giving is important in life...
if you want something, earn it...
not everything is as it seems...
everything and everyone has a limit, its jus a choice if u want to increase the limit or decrease it...
everything and everyone is a blessing to me and others...
nothing is easy or impossible...
to keep quiet when required...
not to keep my feelings hidden...(both good and bad)
work is important if you are some one like me...(spend lots of cash)

things i started to do...
saying wat the crap in stead of wth/wtf...
slack more...
communicate more...(with strangers)
stop being immature...(most of the times)
work...
eat more...(i mean MORE)
excercise...

2008-03-21T20:50:00.002+08:00

when the cold winds blow...
i fell lonely with out u by my side...
misses u when u ain't with me...
i want to be by yur side...

got two jobs...
flyer and starhub...
the flyer boss sux...
stupid bitch...
but too bad...
i don't back out half way...
amrit doing the same thing as me...
but he backing out of the flyer job...
i feel so angry at myself..
wanna kick my own butt...

2008-02-24T21:37:00.002+08:00

went music lessons today
teacher no come....
go jurong point buy sofa wif mum...
i and nel go arcade play while she choose...
play until $40++
saw yuqi and atika at jp too
they go watch movie...
L change the world...
then no jio me
sob sob...
after tat wanted go sell my fat psp...
turns out the shop no open...
sian
go down stairs eat
tiea pan tou fu...
toufu on hot plate...
eat till full full...
made contact with a long lost fren...

i miss u... i really do...

2008-02-18T22:38:00.002+08:00

Today class start at 1pm...
went to eat express tepanyaki...
at north point mall basement...
eat half-way...
see until ding wei and friends...
went to school later...
so boring...
went to buy phone after that...
bought a k770i...
dun quite like the phone...
but better than my old phone...

2008-02-15T22:11:00.002+08:00

on the way home from school,
we saw a giant spider web...
damm long and thick lor...
we throw stick at it,
the stick stuck there...
then we throw of rubbish at it...
ranging grom leaves to bottle cap...
all stuck...
then my friend take a big leaf,
and destory part of the web...
then we sae stupid jokes
like later the spider
as big as a human
drop down and ask
why he destory the web...
went to shuqun later...
saw that person...
now she so bitchy lar...
think she is some big shot...
act so big...
sickening...
make me wanna puke...
hiax
so many things...
too little time...
loving her always...

2008-02-05T15:52:00.000+08:00

yay!!!
got my bkes today!
full suspension split-tone...
black and brown...
my bro bike is
black and orange...
got brake disc too...
very "kua zhang"...
like motorcycle like tat...
total cost 200 dollars...
today didn't go school...
not feeling well...
tommrow oso not going...
i stay and help my mummy...
got the lancer back today too...
my daddy sent it for repair...
he lend it to his friend
but
his friend returned it
like he drive it go war like tat...
the light come out
spoier dunno go where
air con become hot con...
front bumper going to drop off like tat...
any way now repair liao...
so long no seat in tat car liao...
still feel like race rac like tat...
cus it IS a race car....
hahas...

2008-02-03T18:08:00.000+08:00

went cycling last night with kenneth at 2am...
here are vids of wat we did. wtc!!! it went in to the light!!!

ken made it fly in circles...

ah... time for refreshments...wat will we get...

lol..
later come back i fell asleep...
3.58pm than wake up...